一篇謬論 ： 愛是什麼

或者所謂愛一個人，只是假借她的形態，把自己的幻想具體化，是偶像祟拜的天性，是化抽象為實在的本能。其實愛這個幻想多於那個真實的人。所以當所愛的人沒有滿足自己的期望(愛得不到回應)便感到傷心，其實只是妄想被揭穿。瘋狂是想像跟現實相差太遠。這種假借亦是期望和妄想的根源。若然仁義禮智信孝悌是所謂的道德，亦正如康德之道德，那麼愛是不屬於道德。因為愛雖然可以是自發自定，但沒有回應的愛是跟呆了的電腦一樣令人沮喪。愛是為了解決寂寞(心靈上)的需要，正如佳餚是為了滿足口腹的心靈。愛是技藝，跟用電腦或駕車差不多。奇怪的是，中國從來不講愛，只有情。情是比較綿延，是關係。交情，友情，親情。愛比較屬於西方，比較個人。中國文化中，對於人在社會應如何，卻是由道德中出發，籍由格物，致知，意誠，心正，達至修身，才有能力齊家，治國，平天下。愛(的方法)，如琴棋書畫，是技巧。

鍵盤戰紀之新世紀鍵盤戰士 (3)

作者: 向東一江春水

我好記得，當時TVB既皇牌資訊節目《東西張望》，搵左個女主持係遮打花園附近訪問左唔同人士對於「佔中八百死士」既睇法……

的士司機：「超（嘟！）都唔知班友係到做mud鳩（嘟！）」

白領OL：「Eh…都尊重佢地和平理性表達意見既，不過就有少少阻街囉。」

自由行旅客：「耶挺油Chu呀！真味省過腥港人可以姐young爭取綿主。真絲耍B！哈哈哈哈！（字幕：也挺有趣呀！真沒想過香港人可以這樣爭取民主。真是傻B！哈哈哈哈！）」

之後鏡頭一轉，轉左入錄影廠，女主持宣佈今晚《東西張望繽紛選》既題目係：「你對佔領中環有咩睇法呢？A. 好阻街；B.好無聊；C.無所謂。」

結果呢集《東西張望》引起網民強烈反感，紛紛發起罷睇TVB，廣管局亦都收到幾百宗投訴，不過唔知點解，後日既娛樂版頭條依然都係：

「全城熱播！TVB台慶劇　《On Call 36小時 III》首集收視30點 過百萬觀眾收看！」

佔中八百死士最後梗係mud q都爭取唔到。佢地訓左七日之後，有D繼續返工返學，有D決定移民。不過朱教授同戴牧師真係好有恆心，佢地覺得香港人值得擁有一套更好既政治制度，亦都唔願意移民放棄香港，於是決定每年九月，都會籌辦佔中，話要「將商議式民主既種子深耕細作，發揚光大」咁話。搞下搞下，今年已經係第五屆。

講返開心公園現場既「佔領中環五周年」研討會，朱教授同戴牧師又係度講咩商議式民主理論，滿口學術用詞，真係悶到死。在座既學生得個小貓三四隻。都正常既。今日既香港大學，相當國際化，過半學生黎自內地各省各市，仲有一大班細細個就移民英美澳加，擺到明純粹返黎香港為搵食既ABC、BBC同CBC，好似我呢D真正係香港長大既既學生，連三成都冇，試問有幾多個會聽過佔領中環呢單野？

講完理論，阿朱教授話：「好咧！我地今日好高興，邀請到第一屆參與佔領中環既朋友黎做我地既嘉賓，同我地分享下佢當年參與佔中商討既經驗。」

下？ 嘉賓？我望雲四周，台上得阿朱教授同戴牧師，邊有嘉賓呀？

下？點解班搞手學生係到搞個Projector，將部手提電腦駁入去，然後開Skype打長途電話俾一個叫陳生既人既?

嘟嘟嘟嘟…嘟嘟嘟嘟…電話接通。

朱教授：「陳生你好！ 點呀收得清唔清楚呀?」

我係Projector到見到個中年阿叔同我地say hello，佢背後有間別墅，周圍鳥語花香，仲有幾個鬼佬係佢身後行過。

陳生：「收得好清楚呀！咁多位同學大家好！（揮手）」

朱教授：「點呀Melbourne個邊天氣點呀？」

陳生：「幾好呀幾好呀！今日幾好陽光。呢邊時間係（望下手上隻Rolex）……下晝一點幾到，岩岩食完飯。哈哈。」

戴牧師：「同學們！陳生呢，係我地佔領中環第一屆既參加者。今日好開心，佢係澳洲Melbourne都專程用Skype黎同我地傾計。我地俾D掌聲黎歡迎佢先！」

「啪！…啪！…啪啪！」

台下反應冷淡。係得個幾個搞手同學係到懶熱情咁笑住口拍手。

陳生四萬咁口，欣然接受掌聲，侃侃而談：「我係五年幾前，係第一屆佔中既參加者。當時我覺得呢，我自從三十幾年前大學畢業之後呀，剩係識得掛住搵錢，冇咩點諗過政治，都係時候，要為香港既民主，出番一份力。所以，我決定左，要去佔中，當係為香港既下一代，做番D野。直至到而家，雖然我已經移左民去澳洲，但係我都係心繫香港，支持香港既民主運動，仲有年年Keep住捐錢俾佔領中環。

「我好記得，當年我地係遮打花園，綁手綁腳咁，訓左足足七日。塊地板呀，真係好硬呀。晚晚都訓得好差，腰酸背痛。我覺得呀，香港既民主前途，而家真係要交俾你地呢班年輕人。你地呀，要記住，民主係唔會無啦啦係個天度跌落黎俾你地。而家D年青人呀，咩都係老馮既。唔識得去捱苦，去爭取。我覺得呢個心態係要改。」

我望住陳生，真係O撚晒咀。再望下台下既學生，我而家先認得其中幾個，係活躍社運既出位人物黎，有個仲係咩學聯秘書長。我見佢地，有D著住件哲古華拉Tee，有D著著住件A&F，不約而同揸住杯Starbucks，係度若有所思咁點頭，好同意陳生所講既野。

仆街……我有種天旋地轉既感覺。我覺得我眼前既發生緊既事，真係三個字：好撚荒謬。仆街！你班友讀咁多書，個腦係咪裝屎？有mud撚理由，搵個移左民，上晒岸既人，黎同你講，叫你犧牲自己黎爭取民主？台下班友又係到up咩頭呀！

我個人真係好頹。但係又唔知點樣發洩我既憤怒。我好想企出黎，指出呢班友有幾荒謬，有幾不知所謂……但係……我只係一個剩係識係網上打文發洩既小毒撚，講就兇狠，做就碌撚……何況，講左出黎，發洩完，又有咩用呢？

唔理得咁多咧！ 我終於忍唔住，行上台前，對住陳生大嗌：「你條仆街！移左民上晒岸，人都唔係香港，而家住洋樓養番狗！仲係度講mud撚野風涼話呀！」

然後我轉身對住班社運人士：「你班友又係度up mud撚野頭呀？搞社運飲咩Starbucks呀你老味！著mud撚野A&F呀！你知唔知自己係度做緊mud撚野？」

當我講完，雖然我真係有少少鬆一口氣既感覺，但係我知道：我金翅，仆街鳥。

鍵盤戰紀之新世紀鍵盤戰士 (2)

作者: 向東一江春水

幾經辛苦先逼到香港大學站落車，上樓梯出月台個陣，又俾把兩把女廣播聲嚇到半死。

「大家好！我係珠珠！」
「我係HiHi！」
「我地係地鐵小天使：珠珠同HiHi！今日我地同大家笑談廣東話，順便介紹一隻護膚精華俾大家……」

我即刻雞咁腳跑出去站，直奔Kong U。今時今日搭地鐵，心血少D都唔掂！

去到Kong U，雖然已經過晒九半，十點都黎緊頭，遲硬到，但係當我行過開心公園，我真係忍唔到住停一停低。原來有個政治系系會，有班學生搞左個「佔領中環五周年」研討會，邀請左當年發起「佔中」既朱教授同戴牧師做講者。

真係唔講都唔記得，今年原來係「讓和平與愛佔領中環」五周年。幾年前，有班中年香港人誓神劈願，話要為下一代爭取民主公義，要搞公民抗命，堵塞馬路，逼政府俾真普選香港人。結果二零一四年九月，當七一遊行過左成兩個月，D民怨攤到凍晒，連蘋果頭版都只係報導「全城熱炒iPhone 7」既時候，政府突然公佈政改方案，提出沿用當時既提名委員會制度，按比例將委員會增加至二千四百人，提名門檻為三百人，提名最多三個特首候選人供全香港合資格選民選出。泛民主派本來一致反對，喊打喊殺，又話要辭職公投，又話要訓街抗爭，佔領中環又盛。眼見公民抗命一觸即發。點知只係隔左一個星期，政府再公佈「優化方案」，將提名委員會增加至三千六百人，提名門檻降低至一百五十人，可以提名最多五個候選人，班泛民一見到自己友實有機會入閘，即刻紛紛轉軚支持，話方案「符合民主」，大家應該「收住貨先」，「有幾多攞幾多」，「接受左呢個方案先再爭取個更民主既方案」。

本來佔中真係如箭在弦，一觸即發咁濟，點知俾泛民一個回馬鎗，當堂將阿朱教授同戴牧師一鑊翹起。不過當年仍然有唔少市民唔接受方案，紛紛讉責泛民背叛選民，社運人士乘勢發起包圍立法會，並發起「萬人跪拜大行動」，號召市民上街跪求泛民議員憑良心投反對票。政改表決個日，立法會圍左成十幾萬人，係資深社運人士（唔開名喇…自己估啦）既帶領下，跪晒係立法會門前，行三跪九叩之禮，場面偉大壯觀，仲俾蘋果記者係上空影左個Long Shot做頭條：「萬人跪拜，我要真普選」。

結果點？政改方案獲大比數通過，參與跪拜既市民和平散去，資深社運人士發起成立「真真真普選大聯盟」（簡稱「真真真普聯」），並將聯盟註冊成為有限公司，長期抗爭，長期籌款。佢地仲夠膽死向「健力士世界大全」申請，將「萬人跪拜大行動」註冊成為全世界「最和平理性非暴力非粗口既民主運動」，用呢個記錄黎做佢地每年籌款既生招牌。

「萬人跪拜大行動」之後，香港人爭取民主既士氣已經消耗得七七八八。我仲記得當年行出街，個個人都面如死灰，去茶餐廳食野，成日聽到人話要移民。但係朱教授同戴牧師真係香港既良心，佢地冇放棄到爭取民主既信念，明知會好少人，明知會衰梗，明知不可為而為之，都要背水一戰，發起佔領中環，免得辜負無數當年參與佔中商討日既市民。

最後，係佔中當日，有八百個市民響應上街。佢地被蘋果形容為「佔中八百死士」。個日係星期日黎，氣溫都成三十幾度。呢八百人，係朱教授同戴牧師既指示下，用麻繩將自己既手腳綁起，訓係中環既遮打花園。佢地本來想訓皇后像廣場，但係個度已經一早俾菲傭佔領左。經過幾輪商討，佢地覺得遮打花園樹蔭比較多，地板冇咁熱，佔領起黎應該冇咁易中暑，所以揀左遮打花園。呀，唔記得講，佢地本來係想堵塞馬路既，但係經過幾輪商討之後，佢地覺得咁樣會有可以引起交通意外，傷及無辜既市民，於是唯有放棄。

呢八百個人，結果係遮打花園訓左足足七日。係呢七日入邊，一個解放軍、一架坦克車都冇黎過鎮壓佢地，傳說中既防暴隊亦都冇出現過，現埸連一個鐵馬都冇，只係有幾個軍裝警察在場戒備。

鍵盤戰紀之新世紀鍵盤戰士 (1)

作者: 向東一江春水

大家好，我係向東，英文名Eastward。我正職係學生，副業係鍵盤戰士，亦即係世俗人眼中既，毒撚。但係坦白講，我覺得我呢個毒撚都做得幾成功，因為我經常都係網絡媒體輔仁網投稿。呢個網既總編，容總，都算唔話得，每個月都會俾番幾舊水稿費我做零用錢¹。試問做鍵盤戰士，有咩正得過係網上寫文，有專人幫你貼文，搵配圖，Post上Facebook同你推，仲要有錢收？

今日係二零一八年九月三日，亦即係開學日。今日我要返早。唉，返早最憎就係逼地鐵。八點幾去到油塘站，個月台已經塞到爆晒棚，條人龍排到上樓梯口。冇計啦！今日我地香港既人口已經直逼一千萬。而家既單程證配額已經增加到每日二百人，而自由行呀、優才計劃呀、內地生來港讀大學呀，年年政府都話要加大力度，令香港能夠「全面面向祖國」，咪搞到人口爆棚囉！呀長毛、社記、白鴿、工黨、左廿、學聯學民個D，一日到黑上街，一邊呼籲市民唔好歧視由內地來港既新香港人，一邊又話咩要爭取政府增加配套設施，減輕人口增加帶黎既壓力。收皮啦好心！呢D野班友嗌左十年都黎緊頭，由中學雞到大學雞，由青年人到老年人，政府十年黎都係睬佢地有味。

呢舖起碼要又要等十幾班車先上到車咧！幾經辛苦我先落到月台等車，身邊既打工仔學生哥個個粒聲唔出係到玩電話。我都唔明，都已經逼到好似沙甸魚咁，仲可以夾硬拎部電話出黎督。月台對面既廣告牌係度大大聲播廣告，嘈死人。

「先生唔該行前少少等車丫！先生唔該合作下丫！」突然間有把女高音係我耳邊大嗌。

頂佢個肺！又係個D咩上車師奶輔導員！心血少D都俾佢嚇撚死！前幾日睇報紙，先有個阿婆就係因為上車行動慢，俾D上車輔導員催到中風癱左！

晨早流流要好似沙甸魚咁逼地鐵，仲要俾個上車輔導員嚇餐死，真係火都黎！「得啦！我有分數啦！你老……人家唔使操心咧！」

嘩！好彩兜到！冇講到粗口！今年立法會史無前例，係建制派同泛民主派支持下，以大比數通過《講粗口刑事化法案》，係公眾地方講廣東粗口，會被罸款五千，最高監禁三個月。法案通過之前，輿論普遍擔心法案會侵犯言論自由，當時泛民主派有個資深大律師議員，話會為民請命，盡量將法案對言論自由既侵犯減到最低。結果佢爭取左D咩？就係新法案只適用於廣東粗口，其他地區既粗口，包括英文粗口同普通話粗口，全部獲豁免。唉，都唔知笑佢天真定戇鳩。

每當有車黎既時候，D人就會博晒老命咁將自己塞到個車廂到，博命塞博命塞，完全唔當自己係人，而係貨咁夾硬塞入去。塞左幾輪，終於輪到我。咁岩身邊有個背心短裙既OL，同我身對身逼到實一實，係到對住我gip gip聲。阿姐，我知，我唔係洋人，我亦冇錢，我只係一個香港本地毒撚，一身T-Shirt牛仔褲，個Look好頹好廢青，亦都唔識得好似某社運女神咁，會去買名牌包裝自己，大搖大擺著住件GAP去支持工運。但我唔係變態咸濕佬。你今日要同我一齊逼地鐵，捱張年年加價，而家加到成廿幾蚊一程既過海飛，你同我一撚樣ja ! 有本事就搵個有錢佬嫁左佢，你咪變上等人，唔使同我呢D廢青逼地鐵囉！

好不容易先捱到去北角。不得了，一開門，幾百人爭先恐後咁湧出黎，賽跑咁跑去對面月台轉車入港島線。北角站既月台隧道特別長，當我被逼跟住人潮逼出車既時候，我覺得自己好似一條精蟲，一生都要不停博命同其他精蟲賽跑，當你唔夠其他精蟲跑得快，你既下場只有一個：就係死亡。

「哎呀！」我俾個OL kick低，成個人仆左落街。身邊既人無情咁行過，甚至有條西裝友直行直過踩左我一腳。曾經何時，香港人好樂意幫人，就算係冷漠D，都唔會衰到踩多人一腳。不過近幾年黎，有好多大陸人係條街度扮頭暈身㷫引人問候，然後再屈人錢既騙案，令到香港人而家普遍怕係街邊幫人。

「先生先生！唔該上前等車丫！唔該合作下丫！」又有個上車輔導員衝埋黎，用把機械式既高音催我上車。

我終於忍唔住，喊左出黎。我覺得我似精蟲之餘，亦都好似一隻豬，而呢度就係一個豬圈。豬圈入邊既豬，每一日訓醒，俾主人餵飽之後，就要驅趕去勞役、繁殖。當佢地俾主人利用完，搾乾搾淨，就會俾屠夫一刀劏死，製成豬肉俾主人享用，食完，痾番出黎，化為肥料，再用黎餵飼更多既豬。

我依晞記得，係我好細個個陣，香港唔係咁。曾經，呢度係一個人人讚好，安居樂業既好地方……

There is always a story behind.

long time ago, i watched a TV program from CBS - Castle. One thing that really resonance with me is, the character is really charming, just kidding. In episode 1, he said to a self-protective female detective that

".... there is always a story, you just have to find."

For example, recently, my friend lost her phone on bus. it may suggest that she tired and fell asleep that she was holding her phone. and why her phone was not in her bag but outside? that must because she was using it or holding it and waiting massage. If she was playing some sort of game, then she must be very tired that even a game can not keep her awake. then what make her so tired? her job? bad sleeping? stress? If she was waiting massage, that person is meaning something to her, yet, the response is not quick so she fell asleep. anyway, there is a story that reflecting her status.

And if we know more about a person, about his habit, his live, that gives us more clues on constructing the story, a more close-to-real story. that is why our mothers know us well.

this kind of thinking always happened on me, and "There is a story" always reminded me that others foolish act or suffering is probably inevitable because if we know the story, know the history of the person, we will understand why he made that decision but not the others.

because i know it. sometimes i will act against my instinct, or roll a dice.... however, does it help to deny our fate???

Is language just a tool?

well, hello my dear audiences, really long time from last post. i was busy, and fucked up. lack of topics and most importantly, lack of motivation.

OK, well, past was past.

May be in contrast to many answers, i will say "yes, it is just a tool". Imagine a world with only 1 language., COMPLETE fine. From bible, we known that when people were constructing Babel tower, they are speaking 1 language. But the stupid gods afraid people can finish the tower and reach him, he made people speak in different language. The similar fail argument is programming language, that, different kind of computer languages were invented for specific purpose and tasks for simplify the work load. There is a universal programming language, the machine code, which is something like what R2-D2 speaking.

Some people may argue that, single language is just not enough to express everything, for example, there are many word in French about wine and food that English don't have. But hold on, logic alert. This argument only shows that these 2 languages have their own limit but does not implies that there is no universal language that can express anythings.  For example, most people will agree that mathematics is the language of the nature.

in more practical point of view, the story of Babel tower still happen frequently in modern era. When i work with Japanese, French, German, etc, because non of them is native speaker, (me neither), sometimes, when we discussing, the phrases we used or the meaning of single word may be different. Moreover, some expression may be regarded as rude but the speaker did not aware in his own culture. All of these makes international corporation still, not really as efficient as all people speaking in same mother tongue.

There is no room for argument that the primary purpose for language is to communicate. From this point of view, only 1 single language is enough for communication. And the other function of language is just a side-dish. As it is a tool, just like any other tools, it can have other functions as sword can be well decorated, people can study the decoration. Or, this tool can be used as other circumstances, like it can be served a a social status. But the nature of it is a tool, which people used it on purpose. Language itself can be well studied. But this is beyond our topic as we can always study somethings as study how the study that study those studies.